I promised myself that when it was over,I'd laugh at the memories

I promised myself that when it was over,I'd laugh at the memories.
but here i am without a smile in sight.♦♠♥
I promised myself that i would call you, just to see if you were okay.
but here i am and i can't even dial your number.♦♠♥
I promised myself that when it was over, i wouldn't shed a tear.
but here i am, shirt almost soaked.♦♠♥
I promised myself i would let you go gracefully.
but here i am, hating myself for letting you leave.♦♠♥
I promised myself that when it was over, i wouldn't look back.
but here i am unable to move forward.♦♠♥
I promised myself i would say goodbye.
but here i am, still saying I love you....♦♠♥